miss olwez being left behind

dah abes..bye2.

2009-07-30T12:17:00.000-07:00

da xde nk ckp coz sume da ckp..juz nk ckp,ni last blog frm me under this account..i'll create new acc later..

i da bce..i still leh bce eventho i lpe my pass n e-mail fer accessing my blog..unless u set ur blog private..

i da xsyg u..i bkn nk b rude,tp i mmg da xde ati,syg,ape pon i da xde nk bg u..coz i da bg sume,n u buang2 skit demi skit..skg da abes,n da xde pe yg tgl..

since u xnk ur brg2,n u pon smpi da haramkn utk diri u amik blk,plus i pon da xnk tgk lg sume 2 n nk strt a new life,sorry 2 say..tp i da jual handphone..handbags i bg org..inluding those bears..i xnk ape2..

my brg pon i xnk...coz i mmg da xnk jmpe u..since u pon da xnk jmpe i,u buang je k..i xnk..

i pon xkn amik tau pape psl u..xkn tego,,xkn wat ape2..i da dpt my life..n u pon da dpt pe yg u nk..u keep on mtk utk bg u sorg2..u serabot,so u nk sorg2..now i da xde,i hope u dpt rase u sorg2..n u pon mntk i bnti nges.."ha 2 je la keje die..nges"..igt lg? u yg ckp ni..n i akn igt smpi mati u ckp cani..congrats,coz since aritu,stitik pon xtumpah utk u da..da dua yg u nk u dpt..

i da ade life i..i mtk u jgn kcu or amik tau lg..i pon xkn kcu or amik tau lg bout urs..i nk lupe sume..i nk kawan2 yg i ilang sbb nk u..i nk mase dgn family i yg i xde mase i dgn u..i rase u pon nk cm2..

sorry..tp i skit pon xrase bslh coz xvisit u time u sakit..bkn pe,mst u fhm kn..u nk sorg2 dulu,n time 2,i pon nk sorg2 smpi msg u nk gtau i nk sorg2 pon i xnk..smpi tahap 2...

i syg u sgt2,i bg ati i semua..tp 2 dulu..coz skrg,syg i kt u da abes...

i bru igt my pass n e-mail afta bace ur blog psl penyakit..

ni last i'll update my blog..pasni u blog la puas2..i xbce da..

pass = efasygaztsmpimati

tp 2 dulu.. tc n thx fer evrthng..b happy..bye2.

gettin blurry..

2009-05-13T10:10:00.001-07:00

if it so damn easy,i wish this picture will grow clearer
as time goes by
and so do our lives..

it's not easy to maintain errthing..
i'm not an angel..
and so do u..
those wet liquids which had roll down
upon my cheeks..
will be the only witness to all of these
romeo and juliet thingy..

as my age grow older n older..
i will provide u the best which came from my heart..
and exactly,i'm expecting to receive the best from u 2..
as i'd gave mine,though.

it's blurry.
in facts, it's gettin blurry n blurry than b4..
i've been tried 2 heal those wounds,all of this time..
now it's ur turn, fer u to cure those..
with the remedy which u'll find..
on ur own..

suppose to be gud..but.

2009-04-28T07:27:00.000-07:00

hmm...
lot's of words can be say..
but i wonder..
ckop ke?..

p/s : deym!

c r y - r i h a n n a

2009-04-14T22:50:00.000-07:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken

I'm not the type to get upset and cry

Cause I never leave my heart open

Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep to me

Never got the whole in love thing

And someone can say they loved me truly

But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' round

And deep inside my tears ill drown

I'm loosing grip, what's happenin'

I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different

Felt like I was just a victim

And it cut me like a knife

When you walked out of my life

Now I'm in this condition

And I got all the symptoms

Of a girl with a broken heart

But no matter what

You'll never see me cry..

p/s: involve,hurtin.uninvolve,lonely.then how?..

l u m r A h

2009-04-09T11:26:00.000-07:00

sangat.biase.kurang.

it's normal.
want it or not,we've to face it.
i've willing to accept it with my sincere heart.
have u?

p/s : thinkaboudit or juzfehgeddaboudit :)

yo!!!! =)

2009-04-02T14:11:00.000-07:00

lepaking!!! :)
mcm bodo..skip class coz jalan2 :))
dah 2 je nk ckp..
lyn bodo..
da :D

fishing dowh! =D

2009-03-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

love you =*

suke langit time ni =)

bloop..bloopp :D

me n syg go fishing! :)

hey guys :) well actually,ptg tadi me n my sayang pegi fishing kat sg.putat..

haha..xbape suke,tp da syg i suke,i ikot je la ak?

haha..sayang munye pasal maa..mwahx!

panas do.tp seyes langit lawa gile time 2..

biru laen mcm..hehe..

xedit ok! edit text je :)

klu cm putih terlebey,itu matahari tau!

hahaha...syg my syg..

c ya!

p/s: pegi ngn nini (azt's lil sis) ngn pak itam(azt's uncle) =D

bizzy izzy buzzy bug!

2009-03-17T22:40:00.000-07:00

comolot-ing!! =*

study-ing!!

assignment-ing!!

masak-ing a.k.a kipas muntot mak mentua-ing!
hahaha :))

hehe..
well those pictures shows some of my activities recently :)
i'm having so much fun though..
tell u what,it was a very busy week,month,if i'm not mistaken..
hahaha..
i'll update my blog soon..
c ya!!

p/s: best je! =D

omg! =D

2009-03-12T00:23:00.000-07:00

balik umah?!!!

sumpah best siaalllllll!!

omg,it's been ages,okayh,i didn't went bck to my hometown..

lapa lapa lapa lapa lapa..

weeeeeee!!!

shoppppppiiinnggg!!!!

hell yeahhh!

me,singing 'balik kampung' perhaps =D

l o v e.

2009-03-11T01:49:00.000-07:00

i love you

(susah senang same-same)

ain't no otha words can tell..

juz some pictures content with lots of spell..

28th april 2008

6th september 2008

14th february 2008

study same..

minum n mkn same..

lepak pon same..

past is past..

2009-03-09T23:20:00.000-07:00

bye-bye.

i've had enuff n past is past..

h e a r t l e s s..

p/s : no one knows what had happened actually.i've had enuff.for god sake,bye2.

anew..

2009-03-09T09:55:00.000-07:00

it's a new day..
hope errthing will be fine..
n may i hv the guts 2 get through all this..
there's nothin else i can say..

letting go...

2009-03-09T06:59:00.000-07:00

mohd khairul aizat kamaruddin

hey fellas.. :) well,it's too private to be told. but i'm done pretending n busy fuckin cares bout others thought n feelings. its my life. its my blog 2. so here it goes.

when i fall in love with someone,it will be 4eva..its not easy fer me 2 say "i love u"..but when i say it,it was totally come from my heart..

but i wonder why..the one that i love so much,that i want so much,olwez..end up in the opposite way which i'm hoping to..sigh~

sometimes,i cnt help 2 cried out loud..but i'm efa,ok..the happy go lucky girl..when i'm crying,people around me will..ntahla..cm pelek je tgk i nanges..tp i pon human..i pon nanges maa :)

it's too tiring..penat tau..nk jge semua kt keliling,tp dlm diri sdiri mcm bout 2 explode je..sume xterator..my life,errthing..

tpula klu i ckp love 2 xbest..sumpah best..cm terbang je ble ngn die..tp ble down,bpak die. jgn tnye la :)

mcm da ckop da..xrase nk bg commitment kt sape2 da..susah la..hehe..nk cr yg satu 2,payah gle.kdg2 kte igt kte da jumpe,tp xtau nape,end up xmcm yg kte nk..funny ayte? :)

share mcm2..sbb sonok je..:) tp xkekal,then watpe la kn terlibat dgn bnde ni..haha..dulu da jd.igt bleyh serik.tp da jumpe die.syg lg lebih dr serik.sbb 2 masok lg.tp nk wat cane..sumpah,ni part yg plg xbest,broke up :(

pape pon,kne get through gak life ni.xkn la sbb ni i kne down sgt.ayte? byk lg yg mghrp kt blkg bahu ni.mak bapak,adek pe sume.n diri sdiri gak :) piley utk xnk cmpo dgn love lg wat mase ni.. kesan 2,kuat sgt la..xbrani nk amik risiko lg..so,cm ni je la..:)

i'm no superman.xleyh nk trime byk2 sgt..if xmampu,then i'll back off. takot xtertanggung nti..playsafe n xbrani amik pape risk lg..if ade jodoh,mst jmpe lg..2 je yg pntg..:)

piley utk tgk sume yg da jd dr bright side.xmntak pape.hope sume dpt pe yg msg2 nk.if da smpi cni je,try utk accept dgn ati terbuke n redha je la..haha..nk wtpe lg kn? da try,tp xde pape prubhn..i'll go then..

kte nk sgt2..tp kdg2,kte xdpt yg kte nk..n xde laen,kte kne redha n lepas..ikhlas,then kite mst leh trime..brt mane pon,kne phm bnde xslalu jd mcm yg kte nk..so,bia je..n redha :)

to him,sorry sbb xperfect enuff utk u.swear i've tried my best.n u pon tau..bkn mcm ni yg i nk,tp nk wtpe lg..ayte? u're free now..u ade kwn u,u ade life u sdiri,n u bole wat ape je..xde lg i kcu u,hehe..free..xde commitment pape da..da xde yg kne u pk,kne jge..da xde..sume yg tgl u je..:) thx sbb pnh dtg..take care n may u have a nice day. gudluck fer ur future undrtaking. n thx fer errthing :)

geli-geli! =)

2009-03-07T07:15:00.000-08:00

'who says i want to fit in?'

perot selambak dowh!

gemok2,kurus2

haha..last nyte,me n lyn dowl were actin lyke a weirdo which came from mars,i guess. haha..

lyn dowl!

it was started like this.i'm goin out wif azt on da evening till 1030pm.once i've reached at the oztel's downstairs,i saw naser! (lyn's geli2)..hehe..then i thought maybe lyn's going out wif him fer a quite some times..coz naser bru blek dr dubai okayh :)

malik!

i naek atas,then jumpe lyn kt tgge.she said that she's going 2 meet naser at downstairs and bla bla..nini's not in our room,so i asked lyn where did she go?then lyn ckp nini g ixora,lepaking :)

efa! (malik sebok okayh!)

penat,then cm tetido while msg2 wif azt.then someone ketuk pintu,cm takot nk bkk pintu coz da mlm.hehe..da lame sgt die ketok,i pon bkk la :) fortunately,it's lyn! :)

azt!

lyn lepak ngn i dlm bilik yg 'cozy' la sgt en..haha..tetibe lyn ckp "lepak jom mok"..then i said,'okayh!"

haha! so sweeeeeett :)

g wahab je pon.tetibe nini call.ckp die tdo ixora.so okayla.lepak2.mkn2.minum2.cm mlz lak nk blk.sbb bru abes tension bout midterm! lyn suggest xnk blk bilik mlm 2 n nk wat keje gle.haha.cr kete gle babi sbb azt xde kete.then,mntk ned n ned bg.hehe.

=)

azt pon nk ikot.so lyn ckp "klu malik ade lg best"..azt call malik then malik say "nak nak nak!" hahaha..

'independent' okayh =)

(ned's shades..hehe )

lepak smpi lebam.cm "double date" lak.haha..tp version "unexpected" la :)

tp cm unwell sket.azt,lyn n me..malik lak gastrict.so cm wrong timing sket ah.lenkali maseh ade :)

blek anta malik,g subaidah then breakfast kt mcd.haha.anta azt then still xblek lg.lyn ajk g masjid selat,town n umah ank yatim.sumpah ngntok.xsedar tetido.hehe.

blek bilik nk mndi n tdo,jmpe fara plak then anta die g dp ngn bf die.g basoh kete kt petronas then jln2 jap.g giant then tdo.

penat gle babi.tp besttttttttttttttttttt :)

p/s : model??! haha.. i'm too 'large' to 'fit' in =)

enuff is enuff..

2009-03-03T10:43:00.000-08:00

enuff is enuff..
no more walking around with my head down..
i'm so over being blue..
cryin over you..

s.a.s

2009-03-03T02:58:00.000-08:00

sayang aizat saye! :)
xpela sket2 2 en :)

kept away..

2009-03-03T02:26:00.000-08:00

"being kept away twice before..
and maybe again.."

bad luck will be haunting me,4eva perhaps.
sigh~

i'll neva break your heart..

2009-03-03T02:13:00.000-08:00

Baby I know your hurting
Right now you feel like you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you
From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt that you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
I'll never break your heart
I'lll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey that's no lie
As time goes by you
Will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes
And I know you're afraid
To let you're feelings show
And I understand
But girl it's time to let go
I deserve a try honey
Just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see
No way, no how
I'll make you cry

p/s : ....

missing biby..

2009-02-28T18:32:00.001-08:00

azt & efa

I can never really tell you why

I've been missing you a lot

And I just have to take another look of your photo in my wallet

Ad there's no reason why I keep your boxer by my side when I sleep

Pretending you were there,by my side

Its like a missing star that always being up in your sky

Its like the rainbow never comes after the rain

Its like the sun never rises in every of your morning

How am I supposed to live without those things

they are all you..

i love mohd khairul aizat =*

p/s : syg!! mesti u bgge en? hahahahahah :))

malam =D

2009-02-28T07:33:00.000-08:00

artis terkejot diserbu paparazzi! (xprepare pape coz bru blk gym kot!)

tapi die tetap senyum mesra..:)

artis bru blk gym.xcaye tgkla botol air nike 2. ;)

artis terharu azt syg die =*

artis difitnah =*

peminat dgn artis! =D

siann..da syg,aku kutip je la :))

jamban!

KIMAKra + niCOCKle BITCHie!

gemok sial! =))

tako!

deer-owh-rung!

tanglung!

bangge lepas jadi ahli
"persatuan pelajar cacat malaysia'

njoy da pics,okayh! =)

chup..chup!! =*

2009-02-25T11:14:00.000-08:00

hey..hehe..that's my sayang :) his name is azt..we've been 2getha since 2007 :) comel kn? haha..
hmm..lately,lots of unwanted things had happened to me..n thx to all my friends,especially ninot n lyndowl coz olwez ade ngn saye.mello's skaliiiiii!!!! masheh :) thx gak kt biby coz..hmm..hahahahha..u pon tau :P

well,both of us,i mean biby n i,had spending our time 2getha till early in the morning..almost 3am,if i'm not mistaken..i've shared errthing..n poofffff! it works! i'm no longer keeping errthing in my head,by myself..wht a relief..thx syg :)

he's the one that i've chosen..n i am fuckinly sure that he's the one :) loveeeeeeee u!

xleh tpula yg ktorg happy all da time..errone have their own probs,ayte?but we'll try to solve it properly,n believe that whteva hppn,we'll still gonna b 2getha,n insyaallah 4eva..acececeyh! :P

love u la syg..thx fer errthing..muahx!

ngntok olwedy..got class on 8am 2morrow..now da 3.25am..fuck!

sweet dreams errone..happy sleeping..renung2kn,dan slamat beramal! :))

p/s: lyn dowl! tq :)

achoo! excuse me =(

2009-02-25T01:02:00.000-08:00

omg.flu attacked!! :)) achooooo!!
yesterday,there's no 'bekalan air' at this kesian munye oztel building..nini n i having our bath at yaa's house :) at first,we thought that we only wanna get shower n then blah. once both of us reach in front of the lift,nini said "jom mndi pool nk?? :D" n i was like,okay! :D

we've knocked22222 at lyn siot's door n invite her 2 come n join us.but as usual,lyn is currently busy with some of her "antarabangsa" boyfrieenndd! hahahahahah :))

then nvm la kn..g ngn nini pon ok what :D arrive at ixora security post at 9.30pm. gosh! cane nk mndi pool.kol 10pm kne blah da..pe lg?drama la! :))

told the bodo guard tht we have to stay a lil bit longer than 10pm coz we've got some assgnmnt 2 do..haha..then he said "ok,try b4 kol 11pm,ok?"..:)

best! ayu kene angkat n nini n yaa! caye x? :)) best,tp fatyn xmo mndi..mello laen pon xde.so cm2 la :)

its started raining heavily plak.cane nk blk? hmm..call syg,he's unwell n besides,abah was using his car.so xleh amik.lepak until 12pm kot.tgu ujan bnti..:(

hmm..igt leh chill,tp xleh.yela.problem still unsettled,so...

mlz nk type..
see ya..

what a day..

2009-02-24T08:16:00.000-08:00

i'm really need sumone to come,sit,talk n hear me..to share

errthing which is currently messing in my head..anyone..no

one?..sigh~

another rainy day..

2009-02-23T21:03:00.000-08:00

hey..hmm..kindda fuck gak ah today coz early in da mornin,i'd received a call frm my mom..scolded,as usual..
i wonder when will errone in this world will be realize that errthing tht i've done,swear to god,done it fer good okayh!..sigh~

sometimes,it feels like i wanna cut myself,or jump out frm my 18th floor balcony or keep on running eventhough i dun even noe where am i heading to..why cnt they undstnd me? is it so hard?i am their own flesh and blood,ok..i do love them so so so much..but wht can i do?

20 years old.too young,okayh..seriously too young to be left behind and it's not ok to expect me to handle all of this alone..it's not fair..besides,i'm not the one who choose to be in here..i'm forced! i wonder y..
y owh y..

felt like my chest wanna explode..n pooff! mati..senang kn? i wish that my life will be easy like that..sigh~

hmm..babila~

masturbate!!!! =)

2009-02-23T10:56:00.000-08:00

dear blogger!

masturbating is bad fer ur health!

that's all :)

vroom vroom + 'lingkup' computer =(

2009-02-23T07:28:00.000-08:00

ouh my..ouh my..
sigh..wht hppned to my lappylappy..
hmm..lingkup olwedy..
my fault,perhaps..
seriously,need sumone who can help me fix this thing..
A.S.A.P plzzzzzzzz :((

okay then..
bout the 'vroom vroom' thingy..
hehe..
guess what..
today i'm riding a 'motor' with biby..
hahahahahahahaha..
trust me..
it was really2 funny,though..
it was like..
erm..
hahahahahah..
bouncy bouncy errtime we met with the bumps..
oopss..
n i'm not really comfy..
bcozz it was soooo 'vibrateeee'..
n..
you know la kn..
hahaha..
ooppssyy :P

hmm..
miss my bed at home fuckin damn much..
n 'sambal ayam + nasi + kicap + telor'..
lapanyeee :((

currently,ym'ing with my syg..
later..
daaaa :)

the launching day =)

2009-02-22T22:28:00.000-08:00

well..today is the day where i'm launching this blog.haha..hmm..deleted my myspace account yesterday.that's y i'm writing on this blog ayte now.perhaps,i could manage my anger,n errthing by letting them out at this blog.pheewww..

it's raining outside my door ayte now.it's kindda breezy n chilly in here.hide under my cozy comforter resulting me such a warmth environment..so comfy in here..:)

shadow by ashlee simpson.the lyrics was very very very deep.n the songs seriously suits me well..fyi,it used to be so hard being me..olwez being a second best in errthing..can u eva imagine that? hmm..all this while,i've been struggle to survive alone..in errthing..school,life,love..errthing..hehe..seriously,there's nothing in me that u should be jealous on..trust me,no one would eva wanna be me..

well now,i seems can handle most of the things in my life..juz a lil bit here n there that i cant cope with,but much better than before,i guess..haha..having such a supportive family with me,friends,and not to forget my bibyhunny,errthing seems like ok ok 2 me..hahaha..i hope,i can cope wit errthing which came up in my life..like it or not,i have to keep on moving on..coz this is my life..and no matter how sucks my life is,it is still my life..

so live ur life!!!! hahaha..thats all fer today..hv a nice day ya'll :)