letting go...

mohd khairul aizat kamaruddin

hey fellas.. :) well,it's too private to be told. but i'm done pretending n busy fuckin cares bout others thought n feelings. its my life. its my blog 2. so here it goes.

when i fall in love with someone,it will be 4eva..its not easy fer me 2 say "i love u"..but when i say it,it was totally come from my heart..

but i wonder why..the one that i love so much,that i want so much,olwez..end up in the opposite way which i'm hoping to..sigh~

sometimes,i cnt help 2 cried out loud..but i'm efa,ok..the happy go lucky girl..when i'm crying,people around me will..ntahla..cm pelek je tgk i nanges..tp i pon human..i pon nanges maa :)

it's too tiring..penat tau..nk jge semua kt keliling,tp dlm diri sdiri mcm bout 2 explode je..sume xterator..my life,errthing..

tpula klu i ckp love 2 xbest..sumpah best..cm terbang je ble ngn die..tp ble down,bpak die. jgn tnye la :)

mcm da ckop da..xrase nk bg commitment kt sape2 da..susah la..hehe..nk cr yg satu 2,payah gle.kdg2 kte igt kte da jumpe,tp xtau nape,end up xmcm yg kte nk..funny ayte? :)

share mcm2..sbb sonok je..:) tp xkekal,then watpe la kn terlibat dgn bnde ni..haha..dulu da jd.igt bleyh serik.tp da jumpe die.syg lg lebih dr serik.sbb 2 masok lg.tp nk wat cane..sumpah,ni part yg plg xbest,broke up :(

pape pon,kne get through gak life ni.xkn la sbb ni i kne down sgt.ayte? byk lg yg mghrp kt blkg bahu ni.mak bapak,adek pe sume.n diri sdiri gak :) piley utk xnk cmpo dgn love lg wat mase ni.. kesan 2,kuat sgt la..xbrani nk amik risiko lg..so,cm ni je la..:)

i'm no superman.xleyh nk trime byk2 sgt..if xmampu,then i'll back off. takot xtertanggung nti..playsafe n xbrani amik pape risk lg..if ade jodoh,mst jmpe lg..2 je yg pntg..:)

piley utk tgk sume yg da jd dr bright side.xmntak pape.hope sume dpt pe yg msg2 nk.if da smpi cni je,try utk accept dgn ati terbuke n redha je la..haha..nk wtpe lg kn? da try,tp xde pape prubhn..i'll go then..

kte nk sgt2..tp kdg2,kte xdpt yg kte nk..n xde laen,kte kne redha n lepas..ikhlas,then kite mst leh trime..brt mane pon,kne phm bnde xslalu jd mcm yg kte nk..so,bia je..n redha :)

to him,sorry sbb xperfect enuff utk u.swear i've tried my best.n u pon tau..bkn mcm ni yg i nk,tp nk wtpe lg..ayte? u're free now..u ade kwn u,u ade life u sdiri,n u bole wat ape je..xde lg i kcu u,hehe..free..xde commitment pape da..da xde yg kne u pk,kne jge..da xde..sume yg tgl u je..:) thx sbb pnh dtg..take care n may u have a nice day. gudluck fer ur future undrtaking. n thx fer errthing :)

geli-geli! =)

'who says i want to fit in?'

perot selambak dowh!

gemok2,kurus2

haha..last nyte,me n lyn dowl were actin lyke a weirdo which came from mars,i guess. haha..

lyn dowl!

it was started like this.i'm goin out wif azt on da evening till 1030pm.once i've reached at the oztel's downstairs,i saw naser! (lyn's geli2)..hehe..then i thought maybe lyn's going out wif him fer a quite some times..coz naser bru blek dr dubai okayh :)

malik!

i naek atas,then jumpe lyn kt tgge.she said that she's going 2 meet naser at downstairs and bla bla..nini's not in our room,so i asked lyn where did she go?then lyn ckp nini g ixora,lepaking :)

efa! (malik sebok okayh!)

penat,then cm tetido while msg2 wif azt.then someone ketuk pintu,cm takot nk bkk pintu coz da mlm.hehe..da lame sgt die ketok,i pon bkk la :) fortunately,it's lyn! :)

azt!

lyn lepak ngn i dlm bilik yg 'cozy' la sgt en..haha..tetibe lyn ckp "lepak jom mok"..then i said,'okayh!"

haha! so sweeeeeett :)

g wahab je pon.tetibe nini call.ckp die tdo ixora.so okayla.lepak2.mkn2.minum2.cm mlz lak nk blk.sbb bru abes tension bout midterm! lyn suggest xnk blk bilik mlm 2 n nk wat keje gle.haha.cr kete gle babi sbb azt xde kete.then,mntk ned n ned bg.hehe.

=)

azt pon nk ikot.so lyn ckp "klu malik ade lg best"..azt call malik then malik say "nak nak nak!" hahaha..

'independent' okayh =)

(ned's shades..hehe )

lepak smpi lebam.cm "double date" lak.haha..tp version "unexpected" la :)

tp cm unwell sket.azt,lyn n me..malik lak gastrict.so cm wrong timing sket ah.lenkali maseh ade :)

blek anta malik,g subaidah then breakfast kt mcd.haha.anta azt then still xblek lg.lyn ajk g masjid selat,town n umah ank yatim.sumpah ngntok.xsedar tetido.hehe.

blek bilik nk mndi n tdo,jmpe fara plak then anta die g dp ngn bf die.g basoh kete kt petronas then jln2 jap.g giant then tdo.

penat gle babi.tp besttttttttttttttttttt :)

p/s : model??! haha.. i'm too 'large' to 'fit' in =)

enuff is enuff..

enuff is enuff..
no more walking around with my head down..
i'm so over being blue..
cryin over you..